In his first real post-jail interview, Chris Brown admits to Billboard magazine that, "Maybe I was out of control too much."

Maybe?

That is understating it a bit when you consider the five-year history of the now 25-year-old singer. He was convicted of assaulting ex-girlfriend Rihanna in 2009, for which he received his current probation; he has been in and out of rehab for anger management; he was diagnosed with bipolar and post-traumatic stress disorders; and he landed in jail for 108 days after violating his parole by assaulting a man who tried to photo bomb him outside a Washington, D.C., hotel in 2013, for which he was sentenced to time served earlier this week after pleading guilty.

Singer Chris Brown leaves District of Columbia Superior Court in Washington, Tuesday, Sept. 2, 2014, after pleading guilty on a misdemeanor assault. Brown
Singer Chris Brown leaves District of Columbia Superior Court in Washington, Tuesday, Sept. 2, 2014, after pleading guilty on a misdemeanor assault. Brown pleaded guilty on Tuesday to hitting a man outside a Washington hotel, an assault that occurred while the singer was on probation for attacking his then-girlfriend Rihanna. Brown pleaded guilty to misdemeanor assault and was sentenced to time served. He spent two days in a District of Columbia jail in this case. (AP Photo/Manuel Balce Ceneta) ( Manuel Balce Ceneta )

But Brown tells Billboard for its upcoming cover story that he found motivation during his jail time by trying to find a reason why his past troubles happened.

"Maybe I was out of control too much. Or I needed something to humble me to the point where I get it," he said during the Aug. 13 interview. "At that point, I didn't look at it as trying to get out of the situation but learn from it."

Considering the high-powered lawyers he had on retainer, he was indirectly trying to at least get out of jail.


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"I realize that what I do for a living opens my life to public scrutiny and that I have a responsibility to everyone because of that exposure," he continued. "I can say that I am only human and I have made mistakes. I can say that I try to live my life in the most true, honest way that I can. I am not perfect, no one is. No one is harder on me than me. No one can please everyone. No one can live in the past and expect to grow. I have been moving forward and hope that I am not defined by just a few moments in my life but all of the moments that will make up my life."

Those moments now include — 11 days after his interview — music mogul Suge Knight and two others being shot during Brown's pre-MTV Video Music Awards party and reports that perhaps Brown was the intended target.

In the interview with Billboard, Brown opens up about his time spent in jail and why he feels his fans have not only remained loyal but recently launched his single "Loyal" to No. 9 on the Billboard Hot 100. The full interview is online at www.billboard.com.

Ann Tatko-Peterson provides celebrity commentary for the Bay Area News Group. Follow her at twitter.com/atatkopeterson.